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After 4 oclock tomorrow (wednesday) i will be off for 3 days, which means i dont work til sunday morning so come up and see me cause i need it, my grandmother had a heart attack last night, she is in the hospital still but hopefully it will turn out ok.
this journal will be completley bye bye in a day or so.
new journal...
HERE
go add it.
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[17 Mar 2006|01:38pm] |
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V for vendetta.
Today 5:20pm at the pinnacle, we are going early so it will be cheaper.
Go with us.
Then come up and kick it at my place afterwards.
call me if ya wanna go.
405-0027
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[16 Mar 2006|05:44pm] |
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if you wanna come kick it tonight and then hang out tomorrow and kick it tomorrow that would be cool, cause thats what my boys mat, nathan and tony are doing. Kickin it listening to g-unit and tony yayo. Keepin real and gettin ready to roll to the store to get some beer.
Damn i'm so hood haha.
So word call me or holla at me or something.
405-0027
The ice on my wrist keep the crystale cold.
oh yeah and the last remnants of the horrid couch just got tossed in the dumpster.
Im trying to clean out the guest room just in case i get a roommie...
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[15 Mar 2006|11:22pm] |
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best news i've heard in a while...
april 20th sundown in the city...
Shooter Jennings
with special guests the Paul Thorn Band
ill be there no doubt up front and drunk as shit.
finally a good show.
just got home from work, gonna go to sleep and work from 7-4, but then no plans, so come up and kick it with me or something.
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if you aren't doing anything tonight, come hang out with me. I dont work til 2 tomorrow so its gonna be a late night for me, dont be strangers.
I just found the most awesome song ever, well 2 versions, featuring leah nash of sixpence fame the song is innocente and its by delerium and is remixed by DJ tiesto and the second version is a deep dish remix of the same song...very good shit. I find myself frequenting a lot of techno these days...strange indeed but always has a special place in my heart.
speaking of good techno the newest madonna album is freakin good.
I ran a lumber cart into my ankle at work, it hurts.
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yeah i am working on a new danse mix cd haha i forgot how much fun it is to make these cd's. so far i have.....
t-pain "i'm in luv (wit a stripper)"
pussycat dolls "stickwitu" (if i ever had a girl to sing a song like this to me we would be married shortly after)
nelly "grillz"
i should be done by this weekend, friday night come up around 6 if ya wanna, maybe lets do another movie *cough cough* v for vendetta *cough cough* then hang out and drink some. If ya come up at 6 we can get the movie done then get back up here and hook it up.
i love my mom. she spotted me the cash so i didn't have to have my power turned off.
Things still aren't looking up, but with my good friends and peeps coming to hang out, it helps it really does.
call me george foreman cause i'm sellin everybody grillz.
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well basically if you didnt come hang out this weekend you missed a very awesome time. Friday night all the THCIF boys came up and their significant others along with jen vin, stacy, rach, meghan and some others who i didnt know their names haha, but we all went to see the hills have eyes which is fucking amazing and i highly reccommend it. Then we came back to my crib and hung out and watched movies, it was nice to have good company once again.
Saturday got up and me meg, rach and stacy sat at my place and chilled and watched movies all day, and talked it was good to spend time with my friends and just chill we went to sawyers and got 40 bucks worth of sawyers and came back home and watched o brother, i tried to get more peeps to come up on saturday but nah no one wants to so its all good, but eventually lindsey and danica came by and i havent seen either of those in a while.
Im on my lunch break now and i have to work til nine. SO that sucks, and let me just tell you, sundays on nice days at lowes is ridiculous, i mean M I L F central, you wanna go find a place to mack on girls, damnit go to lowes...seriously. If i were still in the market for dating i would be trying to hook it up left and right. Come see me at work or after work or something.
since some of you complain about not knowing when i am home here is ye old work shcedule for this week.
monday 13 10-7
tuesday 14 7-4
wednesday 15 2-11
thursday 16 7-4
friday 17 OFF (and we gettin down again and should all go see V for Vendetta)
so fucking come hang out with me, i am always home cause i have 10 bucks to my name.
Oh and if i dont pay my electric bill by 5 oclock tomorrow they are cutting off my power...
YAY!!
she ran calling wildfire.
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ok heres how its gonna go.
i am off friday and saturday and dont work sunday til 12, so we are getting down TOMRROW fucking night, bring your ass and come see me...ALL OF YOU.
but before then THE HILLS HAVE EYES (which hopefully will be good cause the original is incredible, wes cravens first film) is playing at the pinnacle at...
1:10 2:15 4:10 5:10 7:45 8:30 10:30 11:30
i say we got at 4:15 cause it will be a matinee and cheap then go get some food then come back and get SHIT FACED, as shit faced as i am right now.
but if not pick at time and i will be there. come on holla at yo boy.
865 405 0027
no pranks please.
and fuck dumb bitches and fuck work and all the hotttttttt milfs that come in and want boards and wood cut and for me to load their espediton or infiniti or beamer (or whatever nice car their rich as wake dick husband bought for them) with OSB boards, im like girl i gotta damn OSB board ill load in your trunk...
yeah im drunk sorry.
david gray makes me want to die, but i cant stop listening to his new album.
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[10 Mar 2006|01:10am] |
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ok heres how its gonna go.
i am off friday and saturday and dont work sunday til 12, so we are getting down TOMRROW fucking night, bring your ass and come see me...ALL OF YOU.
but before then THE HILLS HAVE EYES (which hopefully will be good cause the original is incredible, wes cravens first film) is playing at the pinnacle at...
1:10 2:15 4:10 5:10 7:45 8:30 10:30 11:30
i say we got at 4:15 cause it will be a matinee and cheap then go get some food then come back and get SHIT FACED, as shit faced as i am right now.
but if not pick at time and i will be there. come on holla at yo boy.
865 405 0027
no pranks please.
and fuck dumb bitches and fuck work and all the hotttttttt milfs that come in and want boards and wood cut and for me to load their especitiosn with OSB boards, im like girl i gotta damn OSB board ill load in your trunk...
yeah im drunk sorry.
david gray makes me want to die, but i cant stop listening to his new album.
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ok so owen is tonight at the pilot light and i want to go, in fact the yare probably playing right now but i am so depressed i cant even drag myself to do anything else but pick up this can and drink more.
helium vampire helium
click.
flash.
bring the sermon to an end.
desperate houses of deletion.
crucifiction of a turmoil ridden beggar.
tell me something i long to hear
move to my side, stay with me, don't die son, stay with myself
help me set this bottle down and set it ablaze
are you divorced?
separated from anxiety
in my mind and now i weep for my friends
that find me in the morning
let's smoke another one
and smoke another gun right in your face
disappear, please girl disappear.
these fingers are a flower
i brought to your bedside after they fixed your arms
but im touching the face of a worthless angry poison
and its simply a confirmation of everything i knew you were.
spirits are sweet, sweet golden glorious
death machines that have broken my teeth turned my lungs to
a grotesque little piece of mind i carry everywhere i go
on angry words and songs of panic, murder and dancing with grooms
and all the ones before me that tanned, caressed and loved better than me
from the bottles of progess and the tomorrowland we call the armageddon
downsize and capsize the evil houses of hardwood floors and the faces
they will meet and the dance they'll have with blood and mascara
daily and by the tick, on the hour every hour
on the day...every day
force fed spare parts from broken hearts and hang ups
laying at home, collecting dust in a dark apartment on rhodora.
dead skin, old sex, empty wrappers and notes that smell like you used to.
it's my house, and i'm forced to live here.
i'm forced to be here.
to be evil in a world gone to heaven.
cause my brain tells me its the right thing to do.
saturday is wild and full of miracles
and sunday is full of remorse and bragging rights
voices change and the light of day
becomes sarcasm and a cruel joke to my heart
god's sense of humor
this hell i call i a life.
flash.
i'm so afraid
and i admit i never loved you anymore than i loved my age of accountability
my good deed that washed away my purpose in life
til it's just a distant memory
i want to be a writer, famous and secure
i want nothing more than to write about you and your inflictions
and all you have put me through
and what kind of a hell you bring to the world.
still no matter what i say and no matter what i write
i wont make it
i wont survive another glimpse.
i wont survive
this time...
i won't survive.
you.
dead skin.
flash.
old lies.
flash.
another photograph.
the end.
flash.
we're not right and i'm not wrong.
i should be dead.
i'm not wrong.
note to the world, don't ever piss off someone with a mic in their hand.
what the fuck is the point.
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to rid of the black albatross
this is he who kills, he is a deadly hunter
still he doesn't know where she hides
more impossible than breaking bulemia
these pictures turn my stomach upside down
this could never shine, this will always fade
run your fingers down my throat
thats not what this is about, thats not what this means
i am he who kills, and there is no one left.
this is a pain i could never explain.
it eats my memories and dines on my smiles
my god of nausea, my savior of sickness
and now i'm right where i wanted myself all along.
so heres to the night you sang this song
and thought you knew how i felt
this is a pain i cannot explain
and these are the fingers i could not taste
this is simply a revolution
a battle of hearts
that my mind will always win
i'm a perfect model of imperfection
still who really cares in the end?
when all friends are old and old friends are gone.
this voice doesn't make a sound anymore
and these verses will never be heard
by anyone but me.
he loves no one but this determined hell of a man
my sin has laid way for the sermon of this great war.
but the God never shows, he never came to the rescue
but still the crowds cheered me on
cause i don't bleed the way i'm supposed to anymore.
i bleed only how you think i should
the sound of my voice tastes the same as my tears
and my spit, like a burden to the lips of the glamorous models
of our time.
this is all over for me, but it has only just begun.
join us, complete me.
make us, complete me.
join us, complete me.
complete me burden.
thus sayeth farewell for
this is he who kills, he is a deadly hunter.
and tonight he will put his rifle to rest.
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i think they are getting ready to cut my phone off in the next few days so if you need me um add me on AOL my sn is matrwd or just stop by lowes or my apartment.
and i am very behind on my electric bill so if you stop by my apartment there might not be any power.
this sucks.
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here are the facts.
I shaved my head.
I have the new caliban...same as the last caliban, not as good as shadow hearts. Cause there is no "HERE WE GO!" samazing breakdowns, but track 5 is good.
When i tell you that angels really do exist and walk with us on the earth and that i know a couple, believe me cause i really do know angels and hang out with them.
Sometime soon something is going to happen, and i am not going to act like i dont know what it is, because i know exactly what it is, and i know exactly how to make it happen.
In reference to the show last night and my musicianship, The whole RWD/TIR thing has been a major part of my life since 1998. You gotta even take it as far back as coexist. So a lot of people think its all over, and yeah that chapter in my life is over for good, no more reunions, no more last anything with those bands. Unless TIR were to somehow miraculously reunite haha but anyway think of things as the turning of a page, like a good bob seger song ya know. The next page is the start of a new chapter, which i plan to begin writing VERY VERY SOON. A new chapter in a story that is not ready to see an end.
yeah those are facts.
oh and i have to work 10-7 tomorrow and that sucks a deer antler.
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so first off thank yo uall who read this in live journal land for coming to the show and contributiong to the like 300 people that were there, and all the kids from nashville who came out and everyoen who sang along or danced it was a night to remember and i cried like a baby during "rodney", which i figured i would and it was a sad day cause now i dont know i want to do musically cause its tough to get anything going these days. but anyway thanks everyoen even though the RWD set was kinda gross thanks to me, cause i havent drummed in 9 months and that wasnt my kit i couldn't get used to it but anyway it was a good time all around.
today is sunday and i am working at lowes til 7, if anyone wants to come up around 7 that would be cool just let me know. The thing that sucks about sundays at lowes is that tehre are tons of husbands and wives and their little children in there and it makes me sick and sad. Jus tseeing these mothers toting kids around in those little harnesses where they kinda wear teh kid around makes me wish i had a child and a family and a FUTURE. Not this drifting, wasting away, depressed haze, murky death thing i call a life, but my horoscope for today made me smile...
--The heavens are primed for encounters of the most delightful kind, and there's a touch of extremely unexpected romance in the air, too. This is a lovely combination, no matter what sign yours happens to be. In your case, however -- especially if there's someone you've been secretly thinking about, and you're wondering if they're doing the same -- the news is particularly good. Don't be surprised if you receive an answer to that question, via a startling coincidence that brings you two together.--
oh well im on my lunch break and its time to go back and walk around and lift heavy boards and be depressed.
i'm really happy for nathan, he and kay are here watching movies and stuff and i'm glad he's happy cause he deserves it.
be safe everyone.
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ok so i finally got up the nerve and talked to the office today and heres what she had to say.
I can almost quote this.
Im sorry to hear about losing your job, but there is nothing we can do to help you, you must maintain your lease for every month til your contract is up to avoid going to court. As far as paying rent this month you have until the 14th which is when i turn in the papers to serve you to go to court. I can't give you an extension cause if i did it for you i would have to do it for everyone and i'm not saying you are lying or anything but i just can't help you. Rent must be paid and if you pay past the 5th of any month you have to pay an additional late fee. If you are served for court that will mean an eviction which at that time the remaining balance on your rent must be paid, the same as if you were evicted for noise violations or any other violations of your signed lease agreement.
so yeah...
i'm going to jail.
i still have these shirts available, please buy them.
classic case "friday the 13th shirt" - small
the minor times "women want me" - small
as i lay dying "splatter gun" - small
killswitch engage "alive or just breathing" - small
killswitch engage "the end of heartache flower" - small
unearth "endless" - small
eighteen visions "casket" - small
every time i die "shark" - small
every time i die "smoking girl" - small
every time i die "bang your f'n head" -YL (sorry rach, i'm too big for it) :-(
a life once lost "green fly" - YL
a static lullaby "butterfly" - YL
coheed and cambria "weird thing" - YL
I am still selling my 5150, 600 bucks, please buy it.
I am selling my ESP 6 string black 100 bucks, please buy that too.
If you want a night of hot lovin i may start whoring myself out for money...but bitches, i ain't cheap.
I'm really only half kidding when i say that too, but thats my last resort.
Oh and i think i am developing carpal tunnel in my right hand cause it HURTS like a mofo when i pick something up.
I either need to sell my soul or something or FIND A ROOMMATE, COME ON!!!! It's not a bad deal.
help, someone please help me out.
thank you meghan and nikki for being there for me.
thanks.
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Thank you so much meghan.
She did something for me today that i didn't think very many people in the world were capable of doing these days...helping someone without thinking of personal gain or desire.
I hate working the 2-11 shift which is what i am doing monday-thursday of next week...ugh which i guess i can stay up super duper late but what is there to do super duper late....OH yeah play xbox!!!!
paramore is so good, if anyone liked the good era of element 101 you will like this stuff.
the fold aren't bad either.
Tomorrow on my lunch break i am gonna go talk to.......the office at my apartments.
trying to get out of my lease so i can go bye bye, cause i can't do this alone anymore.
saturday should be pretty much one of the best nights in forever, if nothing else than to have something to look forward to other than going to sleep or eating. Which are two things i dont do a lot of anymore.
Does anyone know a good way to gain weight? Cause working at lowes is gonan make me big, or i am gonna try anyway.
anyway give me a call, if i dont answer i am at workie, in that case you can come by and say hello to me in the big blue box.
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anyone up for hangin tonight (friday)? let me know.
i'm not doin shits.
someone move in with me please, either that or loan me 250 bucks. Or buy these items haha...
classic case "friday the 13th shirt" - small
the faint "muscle man" - small
blood brothers "flying skulls" - small
the minor times "women want me" - small
as i lay dying "splatter gun" - small
killswitch engage "alive or just breathing" - small
killswitch engage "the end of heartache flower" - small
unearth "endless" - small
eighteen visions "casket" - small
every time i die "shark" - small
every time i die "smoking girl" - small
every time i die "bang your f'n head" -YL (sorry rach, i'm too big for it) :-(
a life once lost "green fly" - YL
a static lullaby "butterfly" - YL
coheed and cambria "weird thing" - YL
60 bucks for all the shirts
or 5 bucks a piece
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underoath "red bird hoodie" - its a medium but fits liek a small/medium haha
the blood brothers "horses hoodie" - small
the mars volta "eyes sunset hoodie" - small (never worn)
25 for the hoodies
or 10 bucks a piece
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Or 80 bucks for everything!!!
Come on help me out please! i gotta pay rent!
Oh and someone should buy some jager and bring it to me, i am out. tee hee.
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ok son of a bitch..
DOES ANYONE WANT TO MOVE IN WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!??????????
I need a roommate by like 4-5 days or i am FUCKED.
oh yeah and fuck relationships, me and jessica broke up for good this time and its gay. I swear i don't need relatonships. I mean it.
so yeah i just had to change my myspace to single...awesome *rolls eyes*
apparently it's pre determined that i am not allowed to have relationships, friends or happiness.
I am about to shave my head and go back to the red...what do you think?
Sorry i brought my LJ back, i just have seriously no one to talk to anymore.
angels and airwaves is pretty much the most amazing band/concept ever.
www.angelsandairwaves.com
go there and watch the adventure then watch the movie.
Thats some inspiring shit right there.
God i just want to play music, doesn't matter what kind i just gotta play. Drums, harpsicord, vocals, guitar, piano whatever. I miss it so much.
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-to my friends-
I cannot live
I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me.
here we go, life's waiting to begin.
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this is my livejournal.
this is my livejournal waving to you.
this is my livejournal saying goodnight.
this is my livejournal saying goodbye.
someone buy my 5150.
600 bucks. tis yours. 700 and i will give you an esp too.
i don't need it.
i don't need anything.
Show on march 4th, you should come, probably my last show ever. that makes me sad, cause there are so many kids who just play to be rockstars and shit, and now i don't even have the opporitunity to play music anymore. To try and live the dream of my life. You don't know how awesome that it.
all lowes and no play makes mat a dull boy.
blank walls and NO friends makes mat an even duller boy.
bye bye.
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This is THE most amazing thing i have ever seen in my life. Damnit i am in tears at how awesome this is, if anyone knows who did this let me know cause i gotta shake their hand.
THIS IS RENAISSANCE VIDEO
Oh well i am off to gatlinburg, if i dont answer its cause i am out of service or out of reach.
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